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[06 Mar 2009|04:18pm] |
Forgot I had this until I got extremely bored and decided to re-read e-mails from 4years ago and found comments.
Anyone use this at all anymore?
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[23 Jun 2007|01:34am] |
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It might have taken a year and a half but im over it and you know what... it feels actually fantastic.
Its amazing to feel happy for him and not to feel bad on myself. Its the best not to cry at the thought of coming second best.
Its amazing to have another amazing person on your mind, even if nothing will happen its something to concentrate on.
Its so amazing not to be miserable because someone wont love you the way you love them, its more than liberating in real life.
Its amazing to be in control of your life for the first time in 3-4yrs.
Even though I feel ancient Im feeling comfortable in my life and its the best feeling in the world.
=)
xx
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[11 Jun 2007|03:33pm] |
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Argh. Alcohol + weed and roll up fags with like no food in yer tummy = stonker of a rough feeling the next day.
Was kinda worth it though.
Good times this week.
Need some McDs though.
xx
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[09 Jun 2007|02:31am] |
Oft what a past few days its been.
Start of the week was particularly shite.
Wednesday after the exam and the sun came out and it was offically summer.
Since then things have been getting better and I love it.
I dont feel like theres this weight on my shoulders anymore.
I have a job (granted its only like a max of 12 hrs a week but at least its a start) I got some good enough news last night, became better mates with a lovely boy, hung out with the lady, got a job tomorrow night too, then get to dance ma head off at catty to celebrate above boys birthday, get to go to the west end festival thing on sunday and then apparently going to some raving party afters.
For the first time in over a year im actually quite happy. That person doesnt affect the way I feel anymore and is hardly ever on my mind. I have a goal for next year and I just cant wait. I dont have the stress of needing to go to uni or whatever just to keep certain people happy. I have my friends that I know I can trust and I dont ever need to be someone else with when im with them. Yes I may still be skint but Im still somehow able to have as much cheap fun as poss.
Ah good times this summer
xx
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[06 Jun 2007|10:58pm] |
Oft im soooo happy its mad.
The stress of studying and everything of the past few months has been lifted and im so happy
Its weird but tonight even though ive got a million and one things on my mind i couldnt be more happier.
I love being over everything and not feeling like I should be someone else.
Even though im dying for a fag.
Oft..
Bring on the summer, good times this year I think.
xx
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[05 Jun 2007|10:01pm] |
It's a bit good when you don't feel like shit over someone and they don't make your tummy flip upside down when they appear.
It's also a bit good when someone else has your attention.
Even if nothing happens it's been the best thing to get over it and it does feel fucking brilliant.
Last exam tomorrow.
Bring on the summer of working for pennies, cheap night outs, seeing more of my friends, saving the spare pennies for the dream and long days in the sun with a lot of laughs and ice cream please.
Can't wait!!.
xx
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[29 May 2007|12:53am] |
I hate feeling something more than upset, I guess disappointed hurts more.
I guess its what we get for falling head over shit for someone.
Well ladies its all about being false and everything you give.
No one girl will fill thier every needs, no girl will be blonde or brunette or red or whatever enough.
No girl will have the perfect eyes or shape or dress or music sense.
No 1 girl can make them completely happy because they will always find some bloody flaw.
So whats the point in trying to be something else.
Time to get over it eh?
20s old enough to be a stupid teenage kid.
xx
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[17 May 2007|01:18am] |
Tonight made me realise what true freinds are for.
They are the ones that sit up and listen to yer drunken troubles.
They are the ones that no matter how many times theyve heard it all before will listen to you cry your heart out about the little things that break your heart.
They are the ones that will let you cry on their shoulder about the things that are eating you up inside.
They are the friends that will open up to the silly child-like silliness and not be too ashamed.
They will sympathise about the things you cant tell anyone else about
They will open up and share their inner most secrets with even if personal and laugh about it.
They are the people that truely care and wont judge.
These are the life long friends and without them growing up would mean very little.
To this person I am writing about you are seriously my best friend and I dont know where I would be without you.
You are one of my big rocks and I couldnt get over the heartache or secrets or pain without you
You are the friend I can be honest with and you make me smile no matter how silly I am being about something.
You are the person I trust with everything inside for me and i seriously love you to pieces.
I hope I can repay the debt one day matey.
Hope after the shit of the past few months I can finally move on because I really need this,
Me
xx
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[13 Apr 2007|01:30am] |
Happy Birthday To Me
Happy Birthday To Me
Happy Birthday To Meeeee
Happy Birthday To Me
20
fuck me sideways.
anyway if any of my friends read this before friday night come down to mines before cathouse for free booze. The maws being nice n bought some so im like yaldy. But aye no excuses cos you all live like 10mins from ma house so get yer bums to mines at like 8 aye?
Also new number. if you want it msn me or txt ma old phone..
xx
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[01 Apr 2007|05:02pm] |
Downing a bottle of wine and as much beer as you can in the space of 2hrs is a pure bad idea.
Was drunk as fuck last night.
Today im dying.
This is no fun at all.
Its going wrong again.
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[06 Mar 2007|08:43pm] |
I made a choice tonight and I plan on sticking to it.
I have decided I will be the happy weirdo I was 2yrs ago.
Theres no point in letting the little things in life get to you.
The stupid stress about nothingness isnt worth it.
We only get to be young once, might as well make the most of it.
More parties and more random pictures to look back at in 40yrs time.
I wanna look back and remember how much fun being this age was.
No regrets.
Time to smile like an idiot again for no reason and dance like a tit.
xx
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[03 Mar 2007|04:50pm] |
OMG ALL DOGS GO TO HEAVEN IS ON TV AND I COULDNT BE MORE EXCITED.
That is all.
xx
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[29 Jan 2007|08:35pm] |
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All I have to say to you is stay out of my life.
You dont mean a thing to me anymore.
Take your 12yr old dates and fuck off.
You try to hurt me one more time and I won't hold my friends back.
I don't get how you say you've only changed for the best.
Cos you are a right fucking dick now.
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[11 Jan 2007|12:33am] |
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Im pure sick of this weather.
Im sick of my mouth being sore.
Im annoyed at life.
Im fucking pissed off at someone.
Two people are different than who I thought they were.
And im missing my friend so much.
I want it to be last year.
Everything was so simple.
I want to hit something or cry or just something.
Todays been crap.
And I feel rubbish.
ps alex i hope your okay
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| New Years |
[01 Jan 2007|11:40pm] |
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What a delight it was.
Absolute shite weather but fantastic celebrations.
Ended up in Colin's flat for thee party.
For the first wee while we ended up just sitting about getting more than drunk.
Everyone else turned up n the party went mental.
All I can really remember is drinking whiskey, fags on balconys, penned faces and beating the fuck outta some guy called scott.
He was a fucking willy but it was funny as.
Stopped drinking about 630 and crashed out like 8 got home like 12.
Hangovers gonna kick in soon and I will die a little more.
Haha Im an actual fucking idiot but I love it.
At least I know where I stand.
Fuck it.
Hope you all had a good wee night oot anyways.
xx
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| The Mighty Boosh |
[31 Dec 2006|02:36am] |
Know what from boxing day after work its been pretty good.
Mostly been drunk and having fun.
Spent 2 days of smiling and an absolute awesome night with the ladies.
Tomorrow night is new years.
If the plans work out it will be amazing.
Tomorrow night I think the truth will rare its ugly head.
Maybe for the best or the worst.
Its been far too long hidden to be honest and it will come out.
its decided.
Probably a total mistake but its been hidden for too long.
Bring on the alcohol and celebrations
So to everyone I might forget to call at 12 tomorrow night
HAPPY NEW YEARS
& I hope that you ALL have an amazing year.
Hears hoping 07 has so much more happiness than 06, god knows most of us need it anyways.
Hunners of love from me.
Last post of 06
Amanda
xx
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[26 Dec 2006|12:14am] |
Christmas is fucking shite.
Last night I was steaming n had a well good wee night out.
Today woke up got some good presents n slept.
All day ive been pure run down n so tired.
My dads been drunk since about 12 and doing my fucking head in.
The one chance I had of having a good night fucked off and im sittin in my room alone with too much alcohol.
And tomorrow I need to go into work.
Can it get any better really?
Hope you lot all had a good day but.
xx
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[23 Dec 2006|12:51am] |
This week had been pretty shitty tbh.
Mostly just been working late night shifts and going home n sleeping til 2 or 3 the next day.
However, I gots me hair done on wednesday and hung out with Niall.
Thursday I went shopping with Rob and met hunners a folk.
Then after I went home for 2mins I went and met my ladies.
And met my new best friends Stevie n Andy.
We got very very drunk and downed Guiness.
After smoking a joint or two we went to the cathouse.
Where, again I got drunker.
And danced til I fell over and ended up with a pint of cider black spilled over me.
we had to go home after that, even the taxi driver pointed out that I smelled like a brewry.
Fucking AMAZING night out but.
Today was a crash back and was in work.
It was shite and I dont ever wanna go back there.
Its ruined my weekend and I cant go and see anybody this weekend.
But its chirstmas on Monday and I'll be rich for once.
No too shabby.
xx
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[20 Dec 2006|03:42am] |
To my friends on livejournal
It has come to my attention that I will be turning the shit old age of 20 in little over 4 months.
And I dont know what to do.
Well I have a few ideas but do not know what im doing.
If you can add to my list please do.
Cheers.
So far I got...
Paintballing.
Some other activity where we do something in a forest, not sure yet.
The Xscape place for a fun day of madness n shit.
Wanna go to the zoo n get drunk for the banter and the animals.
GO Karts oh aye.
Some kinda theme park... Louden Castle M&Ds the usual.
Obviously some kinda club and get monged.
Any other ideas please? But its gotta be something fun n a bit different cos I will no longer be a teenager n thats bollocks tbh.
xx
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